Tuesday, May 29, 2012

HE is Mighty to Save

UPDATE!!!!  Gabby has been redeemed here on earth!  A family has stepped forward to save her.  All glory to God in Heaven!
My heart is breaking tonight....no one to redeem her......What if my Redeemer had never come?  What if He never paid the price for me?  What if He had never chosen to take God's wrath upon Himself for me?  What if He never said, "I will.  I will pay whatever the cost."?  What if He never said,"My life for yours."?  I would be lost forever...unable to save myself....

Gabby's heavenly Redeemer is mighty to save....she has never left His sight....not once in all her lonely days and nights with no one to hold her close and whisper words of love to her....but her earthly redeemer has not come.  No one has said, "I will.  I will pay whatever the cost for Gabby's redemption."  No one has said, "My life for yours."  How my heart breaks....no one has come. 

If I were able, I would be the one.  This life is precious...I would trade the comforts of my life to give her comfort and love.  But God has already placed us on another path - He has asked us to redeem His little Grace.  We are still waiting for the orphanage to give their final approval.  There is nothing we can do to redeem Gabby right now...except ask the Mighty Redeemer to move His Hand to save her here on earth.  He is mighty to save.  I am asking for a redeemer here on earth to save her until she is forever free in heaven.  Won't someone pay the price of her redemption

Please raise your voice with me on her behalf.... Where would we be if He had not redeemed us?


http://reecesrainbow.org/?s=GABBY

Monday, May 21, 2012

Our Baby

I am a little late in doing this, but here is the little girl we are praying to redeem...

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You can read more about her on Reese's Rainbow http://reecesrainbow.org/28401/roxanna or The Shepherd's Crook http://theshepherdscrook.org/adoption/child/1265/ . 

Isn't she beautiful?!?!!

"Waiting by Faith"

I SO want to be WALKING by faith, instead of WAITING by faith.  We are still waiting for approval from the orphanage in Taiwan to begin the adoption process of our little girl.  I am struggling to hold on to the truth that God is in control of all the details....even the timing of the response from the orphanage.  Even though we were told it could take up to 3 months, I guess I was feeling much more optimistic.  Surely, they wouldn't want her to wait any longer for a loving family, right?

I am sure the delay has some to do with logistics - the directors having time to sort through all the paperwork along with all their other duties.  But I am even more sure that the delay has to do with teaching me to trust God for all things - even the redemption of a little life.  Do I trust that all things are in His Hands - yes, absolutely!  That isn't the problem - it is that I don't want to have to wait on His Hands!  I want every thing in my time - moving as fast a possible.  Now, in all fairness, we ARE dealing with saving a child - it is hard to not feel a sense of urgency....but this is probably more about something other than God becoming an idol in my heart.  Even GOOD, WONDERFUL things - things that bring Him glory and honor...those things, if we put them in front of HIS timing and plan can become idols even above Him.  Oh, the subtly of our sin!  That we could even take things meant to bring Him glory and turn it into sin!  Please continue to redeem me, precious Savior.  Woe is me, for I am still so easily lead astray!  I long for the day that my Savior comes to bring me home - only then will I be free from the sin that so easily entangles and that mocks the sacrifice He made for me.

So, I will pray for His strength to continue my day - with joy - even if He chooses not to give us the phone call we are so desperate for. 

For His glory!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother's Day

Each time I have sat down to begin writing about the other redemption whisper in our life, I ended up writing about Christ's redemption of us....which is very appropriate considering that He first redeemed us and now we want to redeem others.  Part of me cringes a bit with the comparison - because He redeemed us with His precious, perfect blood from the righteous, justified wrath of God.   We are redeeming children from the wickedness of this world without Christ's love and compassion - and the value He puts on each life.  We are redeeming them from a system that holds them prisoner.  The comparisons in some ways are very obvious - but as important as it is to save these little ones that cannot speak for themselves, I never want to belittle in anyway what Christ has done for me....

With that being said, we heard His redemption whisper about this time last year - asking us to save another precious life.  We saw our precious little one on The Shepherd's Crook - an amazing ministry begun by Scott and Kathy Rosenow.  I encourage you to visit them on theshepherdscrook.org.  They advocate for the adoption of precious children with special needs.  When we first saw Grace, we fell in love - as only adoptive parents can do.  However, when we tried to look into adopting her, we were told, "No."  We had more than the allowed amount of kids.  I was heartbroken, but it appeared every door was closed - not only for Grace, but for any other international adoption.  I thanked God for clearly closing the doors and tried to trust He had a different plan.  However, throughout the last months, He kept whispering on my heart that we needed to save another one.  Redemption whispers.  Finally, His pressing on my heart was strong enough that I cried out in prayer, "Okay, I get it!  I want to save another one, but all the doors are closed.  What do you want me to do?"  A little later, I walked into my son's room and saw Grace's picture hanging on his wall.  I thought, "Why not? I will ask again."  When I contacted the agency this time, we got a much different response!  We were shocked!  I say that I believe that God can do all things, but then I am amazed when He does something as simple as open the doors as He has planned all along....

There is obviously much more to this story, but my precious family needs me.  I just couldn't allow Mother's Day to go by without beginning Grace's story here.  Her redemption story.  I want to hold my little girl - I am asking God to assure her little heart that her mama is coming....this is the last Mother's Day she will spend alone, God willing.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

We have been redeemedChrist sought us while we were strangers....in fact, enemies of His and He has redeemed all who trust in Him.  The cost was indescribable - yet we always try to put it in a neat little box.  One of the many things is cost him - the thing that brings about our salvation - was bearing the full extent of the wrath of His Father for EVERY sin that we have committed.  EVERY sin....we like to qualify them as big sins, little sins, respectable sins, not-really a sin, justified sin - but EVERY single sin would have sent us to hell for eternity.

Do we really grasp that?  Even ONE sin was enough for us to spend eternity in hell.  People want to rage against God, saying "That is not FAIR."  How can ONE sin be worth eternal punishment?  The answer lies in the fact that we don't even begin to grasp God's holiness.  His infinite holiness.  We live in world that always has some slight imperfection - even in the most beautiful things - so we don't truly understand perfection.  If we could but grasp a tiny dose of God's holiness, we would be undone!  Because we sinful humans cannot grasp this holiness, we can cry with our sin-stained lips, "Unfair, unfair!"  It is very much like the criminal claiming his sentence is too heavy, when those on the outside can see it is much too lenient. 

Brother Paul Washer has said it like this - the last thing you will hear (if you are unredeemed) before you step foot into hell is all of creation, the angels, and those who are redeemed applauding that God has finally rid the world of you.  Again, this is because they will have seen God's perfect holiness in contrast with our perfect sinfulness.

Have you thrown yourself on the grace of the Savior?  Have you realized that you can do nothing....NOTHING.....NOTHING that will save yourself?  If you had to rely on God for 99.9999% of your salvation and 0.0001% you for your salvation, you will be condemned to hell.  We have to rely on Him completely and utterly for it all.

His redemption is whispering, will you answer?